getting up after taking a sleeping pill is a challenge. even though i give myself the 8+ hours of sleep recommended it fucks with my mind. Sunday morning I woke up and could not bear to pull myself out of bed. not only was I weighed down with several heavy blankets, but my mind was hazy and slow. i stayed in bed, groggy and literally terrified that i wouldn't be able to get up. it felt like a giant squid's tentacles were tightly wrapping my body and limbs... i kept thinking that the suction tentacles were injecting a slow but steady stream of poison into my body to keep me from leaving my bed. it was only after i said a prayer that i had the ja-sheen to pull myself up...
Monday, February 11, 2008
i've been having a tough time :( as a result, i've been scared to fall asleep without sleeping pills... i'm afraid that i won't be able to fall asleep and i'll stay up all night alone. also, i don't want to wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to go back to sleep. *sigh*